So it was 2:30 am, about half an hour ago, when I got off work.  Hungry, I decided to go to McDo.  After paying at the first window I drove up to the second window when I saw this middle aged Filipino wiping down the soda machine.  For some reason I was really touched by it.

It wasn’t until after I got home and started eating that it finally hit me. He is really lucky.  There he was, working at McDo, nightshift and I was jealous of him.  Jealous because from his position, he’s able to see all the blessings God has given him.  But me, just coming from work, making a good amount for my age, and being raised with parents with good jobs, fail to see how fortunate I am.

I fail to see how blessed I am and how much God has given me.  So I’m stuck here crying my eyes out, asking the Lord for forgiveness, hoping this story will reach someone else.

I love her so much <3

Is that such a bad thing to ask for?

Honestly, how much better would life be if people didn’t blow up the smallest problem.  Maybe its just me and my perspective on life.  But most of these problems people blow up about aren’t really worth it.

If its not then it becomes such a waste of time, thought, effort, emotion etc. etc. etc.  But then again, I guess I expect too much out of people.

Life is a circus and everyone is in the show, doing the same thing.

Juggling.

We all juggle around multiple things.  Some more than other.  There’s school, homework, friends, family, sports, work etc.  Its amazing how many people forget how hard it is to do this and more often than not, they don’t see the stress it has on the person juggling.

Everyone has their own “weight” to juggle.  Sometimes things are added to it and sometimes things are taken away from it.  Sometimes people can’t handle it, and their “weight” falls to the ground.  So what do we do then?  Nothing.

Cause no matter what…

The show goes on.  It must go on, that’s just how life is.

Though this metaphor may seem rude to some people but remember:  “Though you are a part of my juggling act, I’m also a part of yours.”

Sunday I found out that my day off Monday was filled and had to come in.

Monday I go to work only for my Manager to tell me I’m not gonna get my vacation from October 28th - 30th.  Which is bs cause now I cant go the Fright Fest the 29th.. an event I planned or get to do anything for my Dad’s birthday.

Wednesday I went to work and saw a note saying I work Thursday from 5-10 meaning I couldn’t go out to eat with my girlfriend anymore. I started work on a project due Thursday only to find that after work it didn’t save correctly so I had to start over.  I stayed up til 4 doing the damn thing only to realized that the stupid iron-on paper was cheap and my design didn’t pop out from the shirt so it was practically a waste.

Thursday (today) I go to school after only 4 hours of sleep, start fixing up a drawing only for my teacher to say that the eyes I draw are flat.  After that I called work saying I couldn’t work cause I have too much homework today, and to no surprise she said I had to come in and would make it up to me somehow blah blah blah.  Tried so hard to stay awake during my next class, afterwards I went home and tried to get atleast a 30 minute nap but failed.  Whats worse is now my girlfriend thinks I don’t care for her and even when offered to go visit after work she claims all I do is sleep.

So now I’m stressed, pissed off, tired as fuck, and feel like the worst boyfriend ever… great.

Theres been more than enough days that dont go as plan. So why does today feel so bad?

Its getting to the point where I just wanna isolate myself from everyone else.

What a person believes in, is what makes that person who they are.  Thus denying a person’s beliefs means your denying the person as a whole.  Fighting about a person’s beliefs means your fighting them as well.  Arguing about beliefs is always a pointless argument, because if a person truly believes in something…. they will not change their mind.

When friends claim to accept each other for they are, they are accepting everything.  Their positives, negatives and their beliefs.  In any relationship, the moment two people believe differently about the same topic is when trust must be there.  The absence of it means disaster for both; the one not trusting and the one not being trusted.

On a lighter - and nerdier - note, aside from all that talk about “branching paths”…..

One more day until Super Street Fighter 4 comes out!!!! Wooooooooooooo!!

The Fork In the Road

When life leads you towards a branching path it is easy to be frightened.  Not necessarily at which path would be the correct one; but which path would ultimately lead you to happiness.  As humans we are burdened with multiple branching paths as we progress through our lives; choosing paths that preserve both our character and sanity.  But how do we know if the path we take is the correct one?  We can only see so far; what may seem like a smooth road now may turn in a bumpy gravel in the distance, and  what may seem like a bumpy gravel now can turn into a smooth road later on.  After all, what lies in the distance, is what leaves us so concerned.  Will it be good? Will it be bad? And what about our friends and family?  Do we slowly leave them behind with every path we take?  Questions, questions, questions; we’re all full of them, but who’s to say these are necessary?  Can’t we just follow our feelings?  Of course not, sadly, that would make life far too easy.

So how do we go about choosing which path is the correct one?  Truthfully, I doubt anyone knows.  I do know that it is an ever present problem we all face.  But what I can say is this: paths represent change, whether good or bad is up to you.  Whether we accept the bumpy gravel in the distance and go through it or cower out and take what seems to be the smooth road now, is something we all have to decide.  But do remember, walking a path alone is never any good; leaving family and friends behind only makes the walk that much harder.  After all, God made cell phones for a reason.  However whether good or bad, through whatever or whoever we decide to leave at the fork in road, we must never leave behind ourselves.  Let us not take a path that leads us to abandon what makes us who we are, let us keep those beloved to us close, and lastly let God guide and protect us through all the burdens and branches that lie on the road ahead.

Yes… this is all me typing this lol. I may have some syntax errors but its 2 in the morning. lol.